shake paws

shake paws

I thought I taught my seven years old dog how to shake hand this morning. Well, I have been trying a several times to make him understand the command. Again I grabbed a handful treats to make him sit as first, then I wanted to make him lift his paw so I raised the treat up high above his head after he sat down. Then I found out he started digging his hand for the treat in my hand. So I gave him a command in mandarin “shake,” and tapped his hand as a hint, see if he would lift it up again.  I made him practice a several times. Then I started saying the command in English, after awhile he would keep digging his paw the moment I said a word “shake” in English or Taiwanese Mandarin now hahaha.

This afternoon my brother came home and played with him alone found out that the dog is lifting his paw toward him when he talked to the dog. And he thought he has taught the dog how to finally shake hand? I don’t think the dog ever lifted up his hand before this morning.

Everyday...

Everyday

Everyday, we keep doing things that don’t require lots of thinking and attention. People don’t usually like thinking hard for every second right? Constantly checking messages, emails or browsing updates, musics etc is something we do to not have to think hard. We keep getting drawn on the the esay-task things. If we don’t control ourselves, we tend to spend overtime on those things, because it is easy and pleasurable.

(like just staring at some boy’s picture for an hour)

Schoolwork requires a lot of critical thoughts and attention. Most of us aren’t so good at multi-tasking, but we are good at noticing the exciting stuff like some kinds of notifications. All these are easy to be noticed and get drawn into. We get a feeling of pleasure when we notice them.

We enjoy expecting messages that can alter our mood …etc; we like to check repeatedly expecting something great.

oh yeah time flies

Okay my heart hurts to think that school is about to start ..! And I’m leaving Kaohsiung back to california :’( ugh, as much as I know that I need to continue study hard and take care of my college grades…I really don’t feel like going back to school at all!. i wish i could stay longer and celebrate new years holidays together in Taiwan but i have to go home :/. I will become so busy with school again…It’s a dreading school life.

here’s the immature thought…..I really don’t wanna be busy with studying and stressing out for my classes everyday again: ‘( this feels like a nightmare! -___-.

Man this is going wayy too soon…. but I guess I really just need to get back to the school grind.. I need to checkup some things on a laptop but I don’t get to use one here…. I’ve been using my smartphone’s Wi-Fi the entire break in Taiwan! No doubt that my dad will let Mr use his laptop searching webs…. idk… I kind of want to start looking over my classes’ syllabus and some other process for my applications that I need to go through.. I have some essays to write for financial aid too…. I’m sure I might have to worry about that when I first get back.

and I’m not sure if I should look for a new job when I get back.. or I’ll probably be working on applying for scholarships…alright it’s almost four AM over here and I better rest..and wake up earlier!

bisexual (nothing too srs)

bisexual

So i just thought of one of my middle school teachers. when I went to see her at school after almost five years long, she asked me if I have a boyfriend because almost everyone seems to have a stable boyfriend or girlfriend? I said no, and i haven’t been in a relationship for three years now! I haven’t been in a single committed relationship for years. Then she asked me if I am bisexual !!! = =”

I was like uh…hell no. i’m pretty sure i’m not bisexual…… that got me laughing because i have jokingly asked a friend long time ago at a nightclub, doubting myself if i actually like girls more than boys LOL just because I didn’t FEEL like dancing with the boys AT THE TIME.  I wasn’t with any boys when each of my friends got a guy with them. o_o. Then at the end it seemed frustrating because i wasn’t interested.

I thought it was so boring that there were no cute boys. ««  just kidding.

It’s either the ones that seemed cool to me that weren’t interested in getting know more about me or the ones that kept talking to me, i wasn’t interested. hahahaha.  Although personality > Looks.. looks are slightly important because it’s what we see when we hang out right….But when I get to know about someone, he is either too nice, too boring, too ghetto, too weird (the really weird weird awkward one that makes me say “UH’) too shy, too cocky, too thin, too short or too dirty… lol it’s frustrating.

At the end I only care about whether the person cares about his own future or not. i’m not going to say more about relationships, it would go on forever. it’s been three years because I don’t commit my time to it when there was somebody .I don’t really have goals for relationships right now. I often just go with the flow. Let it come and go

Now back to what I was thinking about.

I ADORE and admire some pretty people like girls physically BUT I’m NOT SEXUALLY ATTRACTED TO GIRLS. i’m sexually attracted to the opposite of my sex. ….. = =” i’m sure i’m straight.

I LOVE BOYS THOUGH there is def nothing wrong to say I love my girl friends. There is a line between friendship and a relationship. Right now I just think that line is sexual attraction, besides that, then you’ll love and care for the person because of his personality and what he does, not how he looks. 

I love to be with girls but i cannot makeout with them..or anything more than friends like that ……

FINALly update!

FINALly :)

YEEEE. I’m FINALly finished with this semester! Just Aced the golf final this morning! It was the last and the easiest test I had comparing to my other five classes. Last thing i want say is that my golf instructor is one of the nicest person I ever seen! Really liked him :) At least this ends easily instead of being unsure about how I did. 

Now I do not want to stress about waiting to see my grades.

I’m About to pack up for Taiwan!!!! :D:D:D:D Nothing is more exciting than this!!

Being a Dreamer

Being a Dreamer

i swear i have this ability to study (memorizing things) while being asleep… because i get myself to dream about the material………… o_OOOOO… After dreaming about studying Econ…., last night, I dreamed about studying for another subject AGAIN.

On that particular night before my Econ final, I studied so much that Econ was even in my slumber. I swear. For econ, we had to memorize what to say on the essays so I was writing and reading the material for hours that night before i went to bed. I knew I really need to get through it even though it was so much!! writing and stressing out about econ until i was too overwhelmed and passed out. Then I was dreaming about writing all the information over and over again and some notes I wrote as well. I really didn’t know I was going to dream about it. I was shock when I woke up that morning. But can we really learn during sleep? Does that count studying because it was in my dream? Can we really study unconsciously? I heard if we want to learn during sleep, we could record our voice reading the material and listen to it when going to sleep but dream about it? haha. 

There were so much information I had to throw everything in my head, and I was struggling, but hoping to do better! I had to get my brain memorize all of it and be able to apply. That made my brain force me to continue process in my slumber!? I read something says about when we’re struggling with a task, it might be the trigger that makes the sleeping brain to focus on the subject and work on getting better.. I never know what i was going to dream, especially about studying the exact material I was studying when i was awake. it’s clear that everything I was working on was all in my subconscious mind when I was awake. And what we dream about are the ones that usually involves some emotional level, and the things that can be really important at some point. 

I still understand that dreams don’t necessarily make sense or be obvious to the awake mind in order that have a learning benefit. But I mean..When I woke up and think about things I saw in a dream…Like I was really dreaming about Econ, I could see the words I wrote in the dream. I was already done studying and sleeping. i’m not sure if that really helped me actually learn but it did make me remember something…?

yeah if you are a student and you want to do well on a test, you might need to dream about it? but the question is how do you know you are gonna dream about it. the answer is probably to get really really exhausted and study very very crazily hard, cramming, you know you really shouldn’t cram but you have no choice that you really need to get through this before sleep. funny i was just weird out by dreams and now i’m writing about it. But I dream every single day !!

Hard

Hard

It’s more and more difficult every school year, and I wonder which year in the future will get easier. I feel so overwhelmed tonight…counting and thinking about all the points I have earned in my classes….  time to get a little emotional. My head kind of hurts even though I just woke up from a nap three hours ago.

It’s the end of the semester, one week left until the finals. Final exam, final exam, final exam, final exam, and final exams. So I got finals to take for all of my five classes. Throughout the whole semester as classes wind down and the exam approaches, worry always begins to take over me. Well I have seemed to get over with this feeling and of how exhausted to prepare for exams or to remain my studying for good grades.. This workload of college is significantly Increasingly more than the previous semester workload. Every year, it only gets harder and harder because I’ve chosen to take more challenges. It is harder because there are time managing and scheduling issues to coordinate, either to meet with the instructors or to find free time to study, sleep and eat!! and other obstacles couple with the new/higher goals I want to accomplish.

How I deal with stress has significantly improved every year as well. I don’t complain how stressed out I am as much as I did last year. I tend to get over it. If I still complain about it, it seems like I’m just not mature enough to handle school work? I feel like JC has really helped me to grow and be prepared academically. I have given up to go out with friends many times and to do fun things outside of school. Like, I don’t even try to make an effort to meet or talk to anyone socially either in campus or outside except studying with groups from my classes. I know this is only during this time of the year. I have to know what is the most important right. Of course for me, I would want that to be sacrificed. If you want the sleep break from school, then you shouldn’t even go out and think about beer pong. 

Maybe going through all these pressures right now will make me stronger each year in the future. Well, I think it is possible to beer pong if I have three or four classes throughout the semester. I know It is a never good idea to take many classes at once and expect to get all the As. But what only balances out a little bit is I have two easier classes out of five so I thought I can do it. Of course all of them require me putting in my times of being a full time student and efforts to get the grades I want. So there are many things I have to sacrifice, especially to even take days off from work. I’m glad the school kind of provides my financial needs so I can kind of depend on it at times when I don’t work.

Then I’ll see myself won’t have to take this many classes but rather more concentrated classes of three for my major, once I move on from the JC. Of course.

My college application was such a burden to me that I carried for three months throughout this semester. It was definitely out of breath working on how to be competitive while maintaining good grades at the same time. There are times I don’t even do well and struggle in my classes. It is not easy to balance… Plus I like to sleep. I’ve been getting many hours of sleep. Whenever I get home I just sleep, a couple times I don’t even wake up until the next morning…. I honestly don’t like the idea cramming at night, and I’ll never do it after I experienced it. This makes me study after every class but not procrastinate. I hate the feeling getting up early and being annoyed by the alarm and wanting to sleep in my bed so bad. And I love it when I wake up naturally that I’m waking up satisfied…. So when I’m sleepy, I rather just nap in my bed before I study or do something intense then sleep again.