Where's the party @

So looks like most of the party people (mostly the boys) are at edc for the weekend, and some of my girl friends are spending time with their new boys. All I know is that edc is just not our thing. Anyway. I’m having to think about more irrelevant things after seeing another friend of mine has just found herself a boy to be with, and I am just stuck thinking about myself and who I am looking for in a boy. Three of my close friends have already got a boy to be with and i cant help to think about myself. I know there’s a person that makes me laugh and smile a lot when I’m in front of him but I barely just met him. Yep it’s the same person I’ve been talking about. I honestly don’t know him enough so all I do is guess a lot base on the few times we hang out. But there are a lot of things I found in this person that attract me very much. In such a short time, I’m already curious about him, wanting to see him more often, that’s all. Afrer all i can say that it is not becuse of how he looks but how he acts and what he does that attract me. I just have a feeling that this boy is different. ha. But sometimes I also feel unsure what is actually on his mind, if he’s serious or “just saying.” I can never imagine him to be one of those typical douchebags. He treats every single person so nicely. I can’t believe i was being mean to him on purpose for fun. I guess that was because he was just too sweet and nice, and always be smiling and laughing. Seems like an innocent kid. Haha. Honestly just full of positive energy and I like that so much. Only there is time that i feel insecure because he might be doing the same thing to other girls? or he might be one of those boys good at making you feel really special. I swear i’d be thinking way too much about the negative things that may not even be the truth, and it’s unnecessary.

xFormosaL

a summer job?

One of my relatives kept bugging me on FB page about what kind of jobs I will be getting and the hours and paid when I just don’t want to tell the whole world about it right now. Seriously, I don’t even know if it is for me yet!! I do not want to explain details about it if i’m not even sure if it is for me. She could just inbox me instead of kept writing on my page. -_-. Jeez! 

so i did get offered a marketing job in my town after having an one hour group interview. Other applicants were all college students, some just graduated from HS. We were listening and answering questions while getting to know about the positions during the interview. It is basically, promoting/advertising brands and certain sales via reports, media& word of mouth. The whole interview and hiring process also gave me a really good impression, and I have nothing to lose. When I came home, I did a lot of research about the company, even some of the employers’ information or background if I can find any. And I found both positive and negative views on the company, but i found the people from the company do have their genuine, positive professional reputations and images. That’s for sure. That’s what also made me feel a lot more secured and comfortable! There will be negative views because the job is not always for everyone. Everyone has different expectations when they’re looking for a specific job, so they may find out at the end that it is actually not what they are looking for. And the job just has something to offer. I also talked about it with one of my friends when I wanted to know more feedback from the people i know. He also told me that it is a good start, and the opportunity is just as valuable as my college education. I really have nothing to lose. That made me feel pretty good about it. Why not give myself a chance to try it.

Getting to know more about the summer job, I am mainly trying to gain experience, simple is that. It is a paid job. $17.50/hr. And I would be doing four to five hours a week as a part time. I am also taking one summer session at SRJC, and tutoring ESL at the writing center. So far I like the schedule that is given to me. As of right now, I still can’t make sure how I feel about the marketing job until I attend the weekly training day. I am actually looking forward to it, because I would like to find out if I can really do this or not. Other than that, the position will definitely help me better myself, improve some of the skills, and overall it is just a good start. 

xFormosaL

I know I've been gone

update

Yeah I have been a little bit MIA, but it’s only been three days I haven’t gone on any social networks. I got messages saying weird ass things, saying how I have some unhappy problems. And it is already summer for me. I should be going out doing fun things because I don’t have school.  What the hell.. That’s because I’m  a little bit busy doing other things with myself. Haha!! Besides everything else, I have been addicted to a Taiwanese drama called “天下女人心” Lol. Oh well. I was watching the program almost every day when I was in Taiwan in December and January. It is a popular Taiwanese drama for mostly older people and for some people of my age, but all ages can watch it. My grandmother would always watch these kinds of drama, plus the language is Taiwanese so I am pretty addicted to it. After I left Taiwan, I hadn’t been watching it until now.

I was 80 Episodes behind, now I am only 70 episodes behind. Each episode is 2 hours long. So besides other things, I have been spending some of the free time watching it. I’m loving the episodes. It makes me feel super relaxed and happy LOL.  okay, I hope no one over thinks that I am unhappy or something. There is nothing complicated about it.

Depressed

I feel pretty depressed these couple days. Don’t feel like going out and being “productive” but just want to relax and figure things out myself. While a few people try to make me go out and drink.. and I am just not in the mood. This is kind of sad of me.. I know this won’t last long, though. I just want to take some time off and not caring about anything for a moment. Today was a little bit tiring, went to S.F with mom and brother in the morning, ate lunch then came back home around 4pm, I totally fell asleep. And i think I got sick because I was wearing no sleeves with thin clothes in SF. Now I got a headache that makes me feel even, great.