Had The Most Amazing Night-out in Forever.

Saturday was completely out of control… 

The scary part is that I have no memory of how we exited the club and arrived at this guy friends’ place in the city. The part that me being so numb and drunk terrifies me. It scares me so much the next day that I had no recollection of my actions at all. I was being told that I was slapping my friend in the club and doing all the drunken things I have no memory of. Pretty mind-blowing, not that I wanted.. When I started being consciously aware was when we got to the apartment. So the entire time being in the car when my friend was driving, how I found people, walking out of the building and riding in the car or any interactions with anyone was all memory blank. I only remember that I started asking “how did we get here.” i mean it was pretty adventurous and amazing in a funny way. I guess it was already around 3-4 am. It is funny that we ended up being in a house that I thought was so familiar and nice but at the same time I would not have thought of coming and staying in here.

So, I completely blacked out in the club. I was experiencing memory blanks. I have no memory of what happened and what I have done at the time. It was ridiculous. But first of all, I had no intention to become blackout. I would have never figured out that I have reached this high level of intoxication. Crazy! I usually have had about the same amount of alcoholic drinks, and it never did this to me. ( I never needed to drink with chaser but this time i did, this just shows me that how i'm getting worse at drinking.)

But very much in moderation now and I must admit, I have a lot more fun on nights out if i could at least aware of what I'm doing. Kinda makes you wonder why I drank so much in the first place. I mean, i didn't think it was a lot? My entire thought process was to drink this much at once, get buzzed so we can have fun, and we will all sober up in 1-2 hours.

Aside from engaging in questionable behavior that I'd likely regret...

I would not say what I actually remember was meaningful..... I don't know, we were just so drunk even though this might seem ungraceful? but I've have the most amazing one in forever. After I started to realize that we were at someone's place, things continue to be enthusiastically fun to me but we generally got clumsy. It was not disappointing but what I have memory of what happened was, so, so amazing. The intoxication gets between me and the experience. We passed out then woke up, besides from feeling hella sick, It felt so fulfilling enough for me at the time. It was just so amazing though ..

A Glimpse of Finals Week on Sanpchat & Break

 
 

I was just looking at some of the snaps I snapped on Snapchat during finals week.. the entire week was stressful as hell for a slacker like me who just crammed the week before finals. I couldn't get anything off of my mind. t started having no life and eating frozen food for three days straight. Caffeine every morning and night, like hella. And no gym for 2 weeks that is for sure. I wouldn’t have needed to let all this happen if I just never procrastinated.. 

I’m never letting this happen again! I can screw up the first quarter because then I have the second and the third quarter to raise my GPA back up by the end of the Spring! I don’t think my grades could be too bad though… I just saw that I got a 80% in my Journalism class. I was hella excited when I found out… I seriously thought that I was in the edge of getting a C-. SO, I’m pretty glad. And I’m now still very anxious to view my other two grades. They have not been posted yet and i seriously don’t even feel like knowing what I got.. so soon. ugh. Just thinking about how I rarely put in an effort consistently in history and media classes, I only expect that I pass, then I would be satisfied..!

And then there is commitment issues. After seeing how a couple of my friends are involved in different organizations and enjoying the experiences, it made me feel horrible. Next quarter, I definitely need to be more involved in school, I’ll see how things go… In the beginning of the quarter was so chill that I could attend any events and participate in various activities on campus. The most funny thing is that I was able to get up 4 AM to do Rowing practice for two weeks, until I started pulling all nighters for my classes, which is after midterms, I stopped going to practice. I also did get ONE job interview at Brens Event center which I realized that I was not even prepared enough to work there. not sure if it is good or bad.. i did get to drink a lot a lot.. though .. it was so crazy that i think it has ruined my brain functionality over time? Now that the stressfulness is all over. I definitely regret that I didn’t stay committed in Rowing. I definitely missed out a lot… But more things to come next quarter…just need to make sure that I stay on top of readings and everything.

Suicide Hill

A view of all of Irvine at Suicide Hill. I can see the ARC! Next time I’m coming here to workout…

Moderately ashamed of myself

But i'll get everything together in the end.

no really.. my final exams next Monday & Tuesday. I want to do well.

The original goal of meeting that 3.5 GPA in the beginning of the quarter probably is not going to happen in the end of this quarter. I have been getting Cs in my papers. Forget about wanting to be a part of the honor's society ... what a laugh. Academically, I have always been above average in overall. I'm seriously not that of a top or best student, and I don't strive to be that either. 

In my media studies class, I get decent scores like 96-100% in my quizzes on the bright side, but i've missed two of them out of 6. And i'm still waiting to see my grade for the last paper analysis in the class.

And I have been slacking off terribly when i'm supposed to follow every class' reading in history. I just naturally end up searching for things that aren't related to the subject.. the worst that can happen to me is that I would be staring at some pictures for hours.  By the time I've spent enough time on the "not important" things, it's already time to sleep. So i would make a cup of coffee, after sips of it, I would lay down with my phone and comfortably get knocked out without even noticing. Waking up at 6 am, think that I am intelligent enough to just power through the rest of the essays before class in a few hours. Then I would be asking my instructors for extensions to turn in them research papers late. Thankful that it's usually accepted with the excuse I come up with.

Yesterday I went printing the lecture outline notes for this class for the first time when most of the people have already been doing that since week 2. That should be helpful to get things done and study now we're in week 10. I haven't finished researching rap music and the slang language, it gets tedious that I actually have to find an linguistic expert and some international students to interview for journalism final project that I'm writing a literary article.

 I think i'm going to get all Bs. Maybe one A- if I Ace the final exam. I'm still learning to be responsible.

This week should be the death of me, probably no gym time so no cooking for me. Now onto everything else I am trying to get done. Time to stay in, read PDFs, catch up on reading and lectures that I have not been paying attention to, and write the baby version of the paper I actually want to write.