Had The Most Amazing Night-out in Forever.

Saturday was completely out of control… 

The scary part is that I have no memory of how we exited the club and arrived at this guy friends’ place in the city. The part that me being so numb and drunk terrifies me. It scares me so much the next day that I had no recollection of my actions at all. I was being told that I was slapping my friend in the club and doing all the drunken things I have no memory of. Pretty mind-blowing, not that I wanted.. When I started being consciously aware was when we got to the apartment. So the entire time being in the car when my friend was driving, how I found people, walking out of the building and riding in the car or any interactions with anyone was all memory blank. I only remember that I started asking “how did we get here.” i mean it was pretty adventurous and amazing in a funny way. I guess it was already around 3-4 am. It is funny that we ended up being in a house that I thought was so familiar and nice but at the same time I would not have thought of coming and staying in here.

So, I completely blacked out in the club. I was experiencing memory blanks. I have no memory of what happened and what I have done at the time. It was ridiculous. But first of all, I had no intention to become blackout. I would have never figured out that I have reached this high level of intoxication. Crazy! I usually have had about the same amount of alcoholic drinks, and it never did this to me. ( I never needed to drink with chaser but this time i did, this just shows me that how i'm getting worse at drinking.)

But very much in moderation now and I must admit, I have a lot more fun on nights out if i could at least aware of what I'm doing. Kinda makes you wonder why I drank so much in the first place. I mean, i didn't think it was a lot? My entire thought process was to drink this much at once, get buzzed so we can have fun, and we will all sober up in 1-2 hours.

Aside from engaging in questionable behavior that I'd likely regret...

I would not say what I actually remember was meaningful..... I don't know, we were just so drunk even though this might seem ungraceful? but I've have the most amazing one in forever. After I started to realize that we were at someone's place, things continue to be enthusiastically fun to me but we generally got clumsy. It was not disappointing but what I have memory of what happened was, so, so amazing. The intoxication gets between me and the experience. We passed out then woke up, besides from feeling hella sick, It felt so fulfilling enough for me at the time. It was just so amazing though ..