hope you're never finding out what I wrote (HAHA)

haha, just want to say last night was a fun night…it all started from having kbbq, even though I have to wake up at 7 am for school this morning LOL. We all enjoyed ourselves for three hours of karaoke lol…It was a pretty long time in there but it was never boring the whole time. And that was the second time i’ve been there and i had the best time . : ) have so many stories i want to tell too !

but damn, I wish there was never that SLIGHTLY TINY awkwardness between me& u… kind of figured out you would be there. I wanted to see you there at the same time i didn’t want to ? Llol. it’s complicated . I wish it was nevver gonna be feeing like this, just couldn’t really have the courage to look at  your eyes or anything. uhhh..! I have never been feeling like this in a place like this for a very long time. but whatever … …. ..!!!! It will be better and better with each passing day

can't believe..

just finished talking with my friend in person earlier. shit has just gotten so reall now. lol.

They are officially in a lawsuit and everything what happened to her and what she has been telling me is NOT a prank or a joke . lol. . I doubted her words the first time when she was telling me what’s been happening via text messages,  I couldn’t even believe it from my own view….But now after actually seeing her and talking with her, I finally can understand the side of her story…and how much it means to her. .  I’m pretty shocked and now aware of what’s been happening.. and will be alert at work in the coming future even though this is something so out of the blue… . Like i could have never had any thoughts on that.

Yesterday I still went to ohana to buy food and it felt some awkward walking in as i was trying so hard to act normal like i don’t know what happened… I’m wondering what the situation is going to be like when I have work this friday. . Oh jesus… awkward and weird… . I think I can still act like i don’t know anything around him. But i might think a lot to myself during work though … i don’t think I will have those kind of conversation with my boss like before anymore.. I think as much he has been treating me as an employee and I have respected him as a boss…generally i don’t really have any problems with him. As long he can just keep his things to himself and never cross the line like he did to my friend…, as long as I can get my paychecks and work in the same, comfortable and safe environment, i won’t say i’m leaving just yet but I will be fine with it .. I just won’t really laugh with you that much i gueess. just saying though, i’m pretty grossed out at his behavior to my friend. . I personally do hate it. . all the costs are like a lot of troubles.. all the ish my friend now has to be going through is really tough . especially the part being emotionally damaged… .!  even though there isn’t anything i can do to change anything, he will be paying for everything what he’s done eventually. 

instagram new!

Just made myself an instagram! and go see my very first instgram picture. (muhahaha)
So i guess. . follow @justgowiththefo on instagram? #teamandroid . .

starting something different?

i feel like tumblr is not as private as it was back in the days when I first made it . . :S i can’t even write whatever personal stuff without any concerns. more and more friends from like.. facebook that i might talk to on a regular basis are on tumblr. 

just trying out blogspot from now on as I update posts on tumblr. :) Plus this is probably a lot more official as a blogger..

something that no one really understands!

how should i start this … ? so i just took a three hours of nap before I was talking to somebody unexpected on the phone. I answered the call and i really really didn’t know how I should act to it at first. i said how all my friends took it as a bunch of jokes to laugh about since they all told me how funny it was when all of us behaved like we’re just having a lot of fun and messing around…. but yeah .. i should be feeling like crap because on the other hand, in reality, no one knows we were’nt supposed to let this happen by ourselves. there were no one else watching out for us…but be glad that it is not as a serious mistake like it is going to effect someone else’s life in a bad way. .

I sort of just trying to forget about it since i really can”t do anything except for accepting the apology and move on!! i mean we should be glad that nothing big mistakes were being made. we could just keep it to ourselves and talk it out like everything will be alright as i promise to ya. I feel good about how you take responsibility for your actions though. which it differentiates how i see you from the others!  you totally made me feel better about it. there is nothing for me to be unpleasant about u tbh! so i promise that you deserve what you ask for!

i was just texting w/ one of my friend after i took the nap .. I told her about what exactly happened that i got the call. I promise that she is the only person who knows about everything that I remember.

I just started to think very hard… . i feel very sorry letting you to deal with it, i do wish i could do something to make you feel better, which i will do . As I said i had a lot of fun overall with my friends and that,  i do regret it..i hope you know i do.., eh.. you probably don’t know because it didn’t say much ..hmm but i said that it is totally wrong.  I said it’s more of my fault to approach that line when the alcohol started to do its tricks.  … and yeah . . it’s the alcohol like you said. but regardless, we had a good  conclusion about what we will be facing in the future! like you said you know there will be a lot of more chances in the future so it’s good that you cleared it outt!  i’m really appropriated everything to be honest.  what is left for me to think about is that… what is the point of even saving the number after deciding to forget ..