something that no one really understands!

how should i start this … ? so i just took a three hours of nap before I was talking to somebody unexpected on the phone. I answered the call and i really really didn’t know how I should act to it at first. i said how all my friends took it as a bunch of jokes to laugh about since they all told me how funny it was when all of us behaved like we’re just having a lot of fun and messing around…. but yeah .. i should be feeling like crap because on the other hand, in reality, no one knows we were’nt supposed to let this happen by ourselves. there were no one else watching out for us…but be glad that it is not as a serious mistake like it is going to effect someone else’s life in a bad way. .

I sort of just trying to forget about it since i really can”t do anything except for accepting the apology and move on!! i mean we should be glad that nothing big mistakes were being made. we could just keep it to ourselves and talk it out like everything will be alright as i promise to ya. I feel good about how you take responsibility for your actions though. which it differentiates how i see you from the others!  you totally made me feel better about it. there is nothing for me to be unpleasant about u tbh! so i promise that you deserve what you ask for!

i was just texting w/ one of my friend after i took the nap .. I told her about what exactly happened that i got the call. I promise that she is the only person who knows about everything that I remember.

I just started to think very hard… . i feel very sorry letting you to deal with it, i do wish i could do something to make you feel better, which i will do . As I said i had a lot of fun overall with my friends and that,  i do regret it..i hope you know i do.., eh.. you probably don’t know because it didn’t say much ..hmm but i said that it is totally wrong.  I said it’s more of my fault to approach that line when the alcohol started to do its tricks.  … and yeah . . it’s the alcohol like you said. but regardless, we had a good  conclusion about what we will be facing in the future! like you said you know there will be a lot of more chances in the future so it’s good that you cleared it outt!  i’m really appropriated everything to be honest.  what is left for me to think about is that… what is the point of even saving the number after deciding to forget ..