SUMMER 2013 Has just begun to use Blog spot!!

Some old posts from way earlier back in 2012 on here can be found, that is because I was... copying and pasting some of the old posts I posted on tumblr onto here!  I wish i had started this blog earlier like I've started blogging casual things on tumblr since 2009!! I was trying to transfer Tumblr posts to another blog. But then I really have to say how stupid is that....gave up. What is wrong with starting new?  So now cheers to the new beginning of a life in a new school environment, UCI as I begin this new spot here. (still have 3 more weeks until I move in actually) Summer is coming to an end. This is becoming more official now. And I now realize that i shall just start updating BlogSpot and Wordpress as I normally update my tumblr blog. And what I've been doing as a routine that I'm only proud of is probably working out HARD everyday. I might as well start keeping a journal of my exercises. Never a dull thing to do either! 

girly stuff :)

I was trying out a photo editing app, then here are two photos of my painted nails turned out.

I always like to wear this nail polish. Not very bright and simply plain. it’s low-key and pretty… It makes me feel more like a lady. if I wear this nail polish color on my nails around you.. It means that i really like you. :) 

Feels so bloated

feels so bloated

This late-night cravings still won’t leave me alone! I srsly can’t help to think that I have a huge problem. it’s been like this all week, every night I’ve been trying to sleep, then the craves just occur for no reason. Especially for sweets like chocolates… not to mention.. these snacks are really ruining my body. Those extra calories… are hard to burn off during past midnight too. I’m just trying to get more fit and be healthy. I love my body but my face is looking chubby as hell lately. I’m still figuring out what’s wrong with my face. it feels so bloated the past few days I woke up in the morning and throughout the whole day. And that’s been annoying me actually. it’s not even cute. Even though I drink plenty of water, it still doesn’t reduce that puffiness and still doesn’t fill my stomach up.

The only reason I can think of why my face is appearing so bloated and puffed-up is drinking too much alcohol.. OR it’s because of going to sleep way too late like around 5 am.

that’s why i’m starting to sleep early and wake up early. STARTING TODAY. right now.

okay but I still don’t get how am I unable to avoid late-night craves? Yes it happens when I stop doing what i’m doing, when I stop using my phone, stop watching videos, when I just start to do nothing but relax. When past midnight, what happens is that I would get up and drink a half glass of chocolate milk then plenty of water and find something small to eat. That is not helping me reduce the appearance of my puffed-up face!

Is it a sign of not staying busy enough or what? And i’m surprised that sometimes my body doesn’t want to rest. I really have to push myself and force myself to wake up at 7 am instead of 10 AM then.

5 - 6 am thoughts.... no sleep

I was just thinking…why and what I like about you? why don’t I stop thinking about you every single day? And then this is why I like the most about you. Just simply how you prioritize your passion and dreams OVER anything else that other people might not do- spending most of your time doing what you value most. You have already been successful. you have done it and you’re still keeping up.

I sound like I know you so well, but yeah, I can very tell from everything what i have known about you. You always have “excuses” that I thought it is something else but in fact, you are making time for yourself. It’s amazing how you’ve always been creating direction for your life that you find happiness and passion!

All in all I see that you giving up things like getting regular sleep, drinking, and going out with your friends..etc for doing the things you do that require sacrifice. 

Wouldn’t that be selfish of someone to only focus on what he cares about??? If I don’t understand.. it’s really tempting to blame you for neglecting others. it’s easy to think that if you spent time focusing on making yourself healthy/stronger or whatever to be better, you must not care about other’s lives because you’re spending way too much time working on yourself.

The truth is, to care about other people’s lives like your friends and family, it’s important to know that you need to be healthy, to be passionate, and to be happy with your life FIRST. Then there is time when you need to make healthy decisions. Because that’s how you are going to create great things. you can’t do that if you’re sick, always drinking and depressed… if you hate your life and hate what you do for work.

Some people might not understand and think that contributing to others means that you need to neglect yourself. That’s just “the butterfly effect.”

I learned the truth when you figure out your health, your work, your passion, you will AFFECT and infect everyone around you with your strength and positivity. People will actually look to you for lifting themselves up. And this is what HE has been affecting me lately, also i’m sure many others around him. I’m Not embarrassed to say that, it has been a motivation to do something that benefits myself daily.

The ones who want to pull you back down probably don’t need to be your friends anyway.

If you want to create great things with your life, if you want to create great things for others, you need to create greatness in YOURSELF first. you need to care, love your body and put work in yourself FIRST before you can do the same for other people.

You have your own values and, you would start saying “NO” to opportunities that pull you away from what is most important to you in your life. This is what i like about you… it’s why I’m always thinking about you when I’m expecting you to be here while you’re staying at home rest.

This is number one priority.

I swear, this is quite a meaningful post i ever write/ramble on about a guy. it’s almost 6 am now…. my late night/early morning problem…

I can't wait to...

I can’t wait to…

I can’t wait to move on and move FOREWORD. it has been a long summer without you since last month. But it’s okay. it’s really fine, even though I felt a little disappointed for once or twice. Maybe the next ones i’ll get used to it.

For me, disappointment is one of the most uncomfortable feelings. It can ripple through to the core of who you are. Sometimes the feeling contains other emotions like sadness, sometimes hurt, annoyed and anger. But it’s actually way different than anger. In most cases, It really just feeling sad and let down, but at the same time it’s a realization of the reality or shit. (really just making it up) And that I stop and never expect more from whom i’m disappointed by.

“Don’t expect too much and you won’t be disappointed.” Now it’s time to realize, and think that it’s okay, don’t WISH too much and think it may come true to be perfect, it’s not always 100% - there is no need of having too much of emotional attached feeling to the person. We all know in the end, eventually, I will have a life i’ll need to concentrate on..

And one of the reasons that I’ve had enough, everyone is becoming so indifferent and so careless here. Even though I know that some things are bound to happen, i tend to not always willing to accept them. Each time, I have felt overwhelmed by my surroundings or maybe the persons. Each time, I just have to accept that I will feel these things again. I keep wanting to leave sooner than later. There’s only 3 weeks left until I leave home for school. You can do a lot in 3 weeks or you can do absolutely nothing memorable. it’s all up to you. it’s all up to you if you want to make more of the best memories to make every day counts or just let the days passe by with nothing too meaningful.

The key is be patient and practice acceptance.. and we may suffer less as what is happening. I can’t wait to get into a new life journey and grow.

I’m glad typing shit on here help me to get over a lot of feelings.

I’ve been following different sets of workout each day and that makes me feel good and accomplished. After a crazy weekend last week, two days of rest with no workout, I still managed to do Stretch training, yoga, cycling, thighs and legs and a 2mil run at night with my lazy friend all in one day on the third day. Felt super good but inner thighs and quads were very sore to walk up down stairs. Did 2.2 mil in 19 min yesterday for last night’s drinking. Turned out, I only had one shot that did nothing. Sort of unexpected because what was planned didn’t plan out. Now I’m about to go have a 30 min EZ run.

Petaluma downtown tour day

Practically I was a tourist in Petaluma today.
my way of saying I  you & byebyeee. Pics like this makes me very shy sometimes.
But I love these photos :)

Twenty-one year

"Legally, I have 6 days remaining of being underage" -six days before i had my 21st bday.

Personally not a big drinker, if i ever drink, it’s most likely when I am forced to! -hahahaha-

i have already been drinking like a “dumbass” and now the only difference is to be legally drink like a dumbass. I don’t think it’s anything that special, and that there will be no more breaking the special rules and excitement for being underage. My point is just, besides i am more grown and should be more mature, turning 21, the legal age for drinking, you can legally do all the things you have been doing since you were 15. haha. That’s kind of how I feel.

Oh nevertheless, the common practice of turning 21 almost always has to do with going to buy or having your first taste of alcohol. I have to thank a few of my friends: vilai, gabby, tammy and naran and his brother to come out during the night before my birth day and celebrate my first legal alcoholic drink with me. it was a celebration at the very first second of my birthday that makes it special, and to have in front of an awesome bartender, drinking in public. I appreciate everyone’s thoughtfulness very much and I am happy got to spend time with good companies who I can talk about anything I like to.