my problems....

I think I officially got myself into the same trouble again for the third time. And I just got the urge to cry myself out loud. I just don’t understand what makes you change the way you talk to me after the things that happened between us.

I was totally waiting for you to say hey, but you never did like you always would. I wanted you to talk to me and we could’ve talked out the feelings we had, especially what I actually have. The reason I might act a little uncomfortable was because things happend unexpectedly. I seriously had no other intention but just to see you on your birthday. It was just because I truly liked talking to you at some times. Now no matter how many times I tell myself that I need to forget it and that this is waste of time, I could not stop a single moment thinking about you and what happened. I should have been the person say hey to you and speak up right when things have happened. It’s freaking crazy that I’m doing this, but you don’t seem like seeing this as important as I do. I thought I know enough..  I really didn’t know.. I thought you would..yes I wanted you to message me first. But after six days, I couldn’t even wait for any more days longer so I said hey. but how the hell could you not understand the sentence of “I miss you” is implying? even though you said you miss me too, I know that was nothing, meaning a way of responding me that’s all. I said something important then you just gave me the face of o_o. How the hell was I supposed to respond to that? I stopped and you stopped typing on chat. 3am. I hope you fell asleep. To be honest, I’m just crying out to my friends that I want to do something to make you talk to me again but I don’t even know man. I’m already crazy for the way i’m thinking. I keep saying that i’m so done but then again, it’s not done. Why aren’t you talking it out to me. Do all of this mean that you’re just like the every other guys? I would have still never guessed that. I seem to never be knowing if I’m falling for the right person or not.