Tuesday, May 28, 2013

that monthly stomach cramp

I’m seriously having intense cramps right now. For those men who do not know how it feels like to have menstrual cramps when women’s pms comes on the first day or about to come before the first day (pre-mentrual pain?) ..
At least most women get cramps but there are also some women who don’t. I’m sure all women’s cramps do feel similar..but they just have different pain tolerances. 
I’m having such painful felt in my lower abdomen.. right now the pain ranges is annoying.. not as severe, because I’m barely having my period, but i’m sure it’s a sign for the next day, uh. .I feel that I have lower pain tolerance in this case because I really feel like i’m having no energy… when it feels like muscle contractions with sharp spasms in my lower abdomen.. and all the muscles there are all tangled up with the nerve strands.. It gets horrible. As of right now, it’s definitely feeling hella pressure on my lower abdomen. Something super heavy in my pelvis and a bearing down sensation on my sides. I can barely ignore this pain.
When it becomes severe… then it’s so much worse than the ”Annoying pain.” The cramps are bad enough that it makes it so hard to walk, and I really will have to be laying in bed to wait until it goes away.. But if I have to go out, or to get rid of this pain, I will have to take my prescription medicine. (there are also many ways to reduce the pain including taking pain killers and may other ways to help women feel better.)
My pain tends to come in waves. I would say that it’s like someone is kneading dough with a rolling pin, but in my uterus. And It’s mostly just for the first day.
I also hear that pain starts beginning of period and last 1-2 days is the most common type. I seriously don’t think anything else works to get rid of my own pain besides taking prescription medicine, that I only take once on the first day. Plus, it is also the easiest way for me. 

Saturday, May 25, 2013

Well now I'm finished at the JC?

It is strange that I’m having some kind of feeling that I don’t want to be far away from some people or leave some people who know me well already(or know a little bit about me) Even though the fact that we don’t even see each other any time outside of school, sometimes I just feel thankful to have known some of you that are willing to help others or I share things with when I’m having my most random moment in school. And at least to have the most casual conversation during class, or outside of classroom after class. It was nice.
The feeling that I used to see some people daily or weekly- it could be in class or around campus and library in school, but then all of the sudden it is all over  now that I will seem to never going to see them anymore. 
I feel that it is true, it means that I am moving on and going away. It just kind of hurts to think that that I will never have a chance to simply interact with any of these few people that I once enjoyed so much in my time. It is the feeling that ” I am going to miss you guys.”  and “don’t really want to let go and move on” kind of feeling. I am not sure about how they feel but I am sure they are also moving on in their life. 
And, it makes me kind of overwhelmed to think about how I will need to start off interacting with new people that don’t know me, and don’t know what I have been through.
New people do not know my personality, my hobbies and taste of music or my styles any that kinds of things.. personally. I think it is overwhelming on that part where new people will not understand what I have been through, and that it will take some time for them to get to know me. And I thinkthis is why I feel that I am going to miss the people who know me, or personally.
I am just dumb having the mood that I wish I could stay with the people that know me; I don’t need to leave them and move on, at the same time, I could keep meeting new people. 

Race ?

First of all, I enjoyed a lot in my first sociology class at srjc, with a wonderful professor. Even though it was a late night class when half of the people tended to fall asleep, I have always thought that my professor greatly taught us more about what I have already known - more of the insights and perspectives about race and ethnicity.  I mean, it is just some things that I think it is good to know a little bit about in my entire life.
What is race ? is race real? does race exist?  Most of the people will def say that race do exist and it is real.
there is such thing as race? From this point of view, people say that there are different patterns of the way people look in physical appearance such as hair, skin color, eye shapes and bone structures etc. But making labels for the patterns and socializing according to those patterns is a social construction. In America, or to narrow it down, in a public school institution, we obviously have different physical attributes and that can show different races among people. So many questions are raised to ask that if there is no such thing as race, why is there still racism in society?
From another point of view by saying how there is no such thing as race, I would think that we are not simply similar, it is more than just a fact that we are all the same species capable of mating with any others and producing normal, viable offspring. I guess same race means the same species?
In class, we learned that there is no such thing as race because biologically we are all very similar. The only difference are the melanin, keratin and hemoglobin in our skin. That I realize how cool is that our physical bodies are different, was based on geographical places for our ancestor to adapt in certain areas. For those near the equator were in a sunnier, hotter area.  The melanin acts like a built in sunscreen against radiation. More melanin means more pigment. And light skin was developed since there was less sun in Northern latitudes, adaptations were made in order to absorbed vitamin D. And that is why the people who have darker skin have better protection from the sun versus the people who have lighter skin. Because in history, our ancestors’ physical appearance were developed in different geographical area that it was needed for them to survive in their environment. And this is why blacks tend to be good at sports because of their body structure were developed as that their ancestors had to have certain ability/skills to survive in a long time ago .. You get what I mean….  
As what race is, it is certainly a social construct. It was meant to separate and segregate people of different traits. I wonder how long it will be before people figure this out.
Again, what I learned in my class and from some of the readings, race is often a human perception and a way we identify each other. I mean, sure people who we identify as Asian have slanted eyes, black straight hair and ‘yellow’ complexion and other ethnicities - but that’s just humanity’s way of arranging concepts in accordance to their common characteristics to avoid confusion. I think we ourselves make up this, and that there is no such thing as race from this point of view. Also, what gives members of these races a feeling of belonging to a group and sharing things in common with other people are the culture, amongst other things.
I have learned that race is really not a way to classify people of different cultures, but it is more of a means to classify people that are genetically different. 
It is hard to say if Race really exists or not. It can exists from certain point of view and it can not exist if it is in another different point of view. In all, we all have the same ancestors but it is hard to think that there is no such thing as “white people,” “black people.” “brown people” or “yellow people.” I guess that’s why racism still exists.
xFormosaL

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Selfie


This morning was okay. I got 2 hours of sleep last night. I started researching and making a power point all night and finished it before doing my presentation today at 9am.. and got a 70/70 ha! =P 

Monday, May 6, 2013

i can smell your jealousy-ness

Ha. I can kind of tell among few of my friends like, who is jealous or who cares and who doesn’t care. 
I mean, it’s kind of obvious to see too, even though it’s just a sign that shows a friend might be jealous. There are times when i’m extremely excited to announce something new, only for me to tell some of my friends that I talk to a lot, and their responses would be something like “oh okay” or something just NOT like, “that sounds great!” or “Good Job!” “Nice!” Or sometimes she would hear things from a friend, or even see my updates from social networks, but she wouldn’t bring it up to me to show support when we see or talk to each other. And there is another type of friends that I can tell they are truly supportive and happy when I tell them good things happen to me. Their responses would be “i’m so happy for you!”  or anything that will add an emotional support or ask questions and want to get to know what my next plan is and such. And that’s when I can tell who is really glad and who may be “jealous” when I tell them about particular good news about something.
It’s obvious to me when a friend who is lack of encouragement or lack of support, it is a sign that she is jealous. Like I imagine that I am excited for what is about to happen to me, while she would be not wishing me the best and luck??
Just a random thought.

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

the necklace from my ah mah


The necklace from my ah-mah. She told me in January that this was my grandpa's gift for her, and she wants me to have it because she knew she didn't have much time left. But that wasn't true. Even though it's been 3 months since last I hung out with ah mah , now that she's up there, will always be looking after me whenever she can. Can't wait to visit her in Taiwan &bring her fav food in summer #love #20years

Monday, April 29, 2013

Decision, School Update.

With the thought that I might be going to UCI, my dad says that the cons is that there are too many Asians =_=. Well that was one of the reasons why I would go there though. aha. Jk.
So I got accepted to UCI, UCR and SDSU, and i’m still waiting for UCD’s dec. (rejected by UCB, UCSB and CSULB)
But I was on a forum posting whether to choose SDSU or UCI because both schools have the major that I’m doing. I haven’t been to both schools so I honestly had no idea which one would best fit me. Anyone who would transfer/ has transfered to UCI or anyone who has been to the campus want to share their thoughts about going to their school and what you like about the school? how is the social life and student involvement at UCI?  
I honestly just hadn’t asked anyone what they think about the schools, and I really didn’t know anything about Irvine myself. I would be going to uci simply because it’s a UC but I felt like sdsu has more ? I honestly had no clue and I was afraid that I if I didn’t register for sdsu before it was too late 5/1 i would regret -__- 
Then I found out that how SDSU might be a bit too much for me, even though the name of the major at SDSU is really appealing to me.. though it does show me a much better/stronger program they have. But I’m sure there isn’t anything that I can’t do if i’m at Irvine. Also realize that UCI is a university of California, a well respected school .. its a UC. UCs rankings always fluctuate. Besides that they also give me much more Financial aid that covers up almost everything than at SDSU.
I don’t know why I was a bit worried about the reputation of  ”socially dead” at UCI. And whether the students are involved in school or not. Now that just seems too exaggerating to me.
I think most of the time, if I want to stay on top of my classes, I personally would like to stay at somewhere that’s less crazily crowded? UCI’s atmosphere seems very similar to UCD. I’m sure I’ll be happy with where I end up going and my decisions, UCD or UCI. Now that this makes me feel better at deciding to not SIR SDSU and spend that enrollment fee $400 tomorrow.