TRUE &selfnote

"Going above and beyond what most people do — and accomplishing these things through your own creativity and hard work, not through your parents’ buying opportunities for you, is what helps you stand out among others."

Kind of a self note and what i feel like after this day …

Do not let myself to be overcome by stress or fear.. don’t want to lose focus and not be able to retain what i am supposed to be doing

the most asians gals in 707!

the most asian people in towwwwwwwwwwn! 

i’m gona miss youu gall. It’s not like we aren’t going to see each other. We don’t hang out everyday but i feel like the more you drink the more we have gotten closer, aren’t that true? well also that is when you become more open to people and would start telling Me your secrets, and how you feel about the boys and shit lol.  hahaha you know I tell my close friends everything, and you’re my close friend. And fuck, I need to built up some alcohol tolerance, so i can catch up with you, seriously…  i will think about going to SoCal during Thanksgiving break to see how hardcore you become. But I really still need to think about that. there will be finals and it’s applying month!:/ so i can’t promise you that i will go see you for sure! will still love ya ;)

I need to stop.

Are we both trying to be unresponsive? Every time I see your face, it kills me. you make me think so much towards all the decisions and the words we had before. I have a feeling you feel the same when i tend to see where you are…. i need to stop. 

It kills me every second not talking to you when when i see you with all the friends around us, and when you’re everywhere I go.

Sometimes, a Hello means nothing but it’s a greeting and being polite. It comes up it would not start any conversation either. 

When i see your face, i don’t know how to act anymore, do I just go to you and even look into your eyes and laugh at everything you say and interact with you or do I just pretend that we aren’t even friends. I hate this, i hate that we aren’t like friends, we try to avoid the chances seeing what each other’s doing ?

How i wish that we can be back to normal like before in March, the kind of friends that we interact with each other so much around the people.

Can we just end this and start all over…  

i think if i have a chance in the future which i know i will have, i will make this end and start all over

My GPA.....

My GPA ended up being still low after this summer. 

I actually worked hard and did raise my GPA a little bit over the summer.. but my GPA still didn’t get higher enough to become a truly competitive applicant, for Berkeley.

i don’t want to say anymore about what i should/could have done last Fall/ Spring semester… Especially the first year/ last FALL semester, i only had three classes and didn’t even get all As. I made many mistakes and took one class I wasn’t capable of.

Realistically speaking, i barely have a chance for Berkeley right now. I would say below 20% but…. there’s always a little chance that i’d never know what would happen if i try applying.  Since i can’t apply to tag for Davis, I’m going to tag UCSB. I will need at least 3.2 by the end of the fall term to be approved, then i’ll be only automatically accepted to SB.

The most i can do right now is just get As in all SIX of my classes this semester. I can only get ONE B and ALL As to maintain the GPA for Berkeley, Davis and TAG for SB. 

The worst can happen is not being accepted to Berkeley.. if i really don’t want to go to a CSU then i might have to stay at the CC for a third year. As much as I really really don’t want to stay for an extra year, that’s the WOrst option/choice could happen to me. Plus, my major is not even that difficult. If I stay, then i might as well change to a harder major like economics or international relations.

i know it’s nearly impossible to get accepted with my current GPA, a 3.0. but there is no harm applying it, and i’ll be trying hard to raise that GPA by the end of this fall when the they will review my updated GPA.

Right now I just feel like i can do anything to get to where I want to be. i’m taking 6 classes this fall, including an one unit class. Y’all might think that it’s dumb to take so many classes at once and expect to get all As. But i”m pretty determined to do that. I’m aiming for all As. i can’t guarantee to get the A in Economy though. I’m definitely going to be spending most of time in that class and putting in a significant amount of time start whipping out all A’s. studying my butt off, for sure

It's teaway LOVE!!!!

0_0 I need to cut my bangs tomorrow! they’re so long..-.-!!! #justdoit.

 Herroos! I just done with three of my classes for the…weeekk……!! Feel relieved for a bit though. but I still have so much work to do this weekend. Ergh. #school #nobalance #summer. 

I really really love being in the #library in this campus ! it’s my favorite place. #Santarosa #junior #college

spam musubi at ohana!

Hehhh I’m at work… making myself some #spam musubis to eat!! :P